i want to cry but i’m stopping myself, i don’t know why, i want you to help me, i want you to care,show that you care.

i feel like you don’t, i know for a fact you wouldn’t of come if jack was in sheffield, i’m only your 3rd option now.

you’re still the only person i can cry in front of, you’re still the only person i can turn to with my problems, i don’t even know why, i have some great friends, but i don’t trust anyone, i will never trust anyone.

i now you think i’m annoying and moaning but idc, you don’t have to read this, you have to come on here especialy, which you probably won’t now jack’s back.

you fuck taht kid up, after everything you said about not wanting to be with him etc.

what am i even doing? i just turned al depressed, i actually fucking hate it here, i don’t know if can wait untili canleave, puting on this act, pretending i’m something i’m not, you’re right about everything, all the time every time, but there are morepeople who need you the same why i do, nobodyneeds me anymore, not even you, i can’t even handle it.

everything, for everyone, would be easier if i left, including me, it would hurt for a while, but then i could just be differentplaces all the time, constantly on my own, like i’m meant to be.but why? i want to live like i planned when i was with you, grow up and get married,atleast a half average life, i can’t see memeeting anyone else now.

i’mnot saying i want you back, i want you to do what makes you happy.

i just want to find someone to make me forget you, but i’ve never met anyone who’s graspedthe world like you, everyone elseis oblivious, stupid, nobody else understandsmelike you and nobody else ever will, that’s why i’m meant to be alone, not because it was my fate, it’s because my un alone time has been and gone, toearly.

i can’t even think, i need some pain killers but there downstairs, i’m gunna lie down and try and get my self to not stop myself from crying, and hope it helps if i manage it.